reasons

aside from him being the male doppleganger of my best friend, there are other reasons why we should be together.

the him-being-Andrea except a man is important because she's crazy. partially in the "zany" way, but mostly in the medicated way. so, he can rest assured that he can do his worst and i'm not going anywhere. there's little sarcasm, anger, pessimism, depression, silliness, or general strangeness he can bring that i haven't either been through alone or via Andrea. anytime i can tell whether or not you've taken your meds over the phone, it's safe to say that there's not a lot that scares me. i'm reasonably certain that there's no other woman in the world who could care for and love him better than i could.

while that's a rather sound argument, there's more. i realized tonight that i've only been keenly interested in him for about 4-5 months and, considering, i've made quite a bit of progress, i think. i know he hasn't had a girlfriend --and probably sex-- for a few years and i exude sexuality. i'm not bragging, it's just a fact. i'm a sexual creature and have a flirty way about me. i can see how, for a man who's been arms length from a woman for that long, that could be intimidating. not to mention the girls. they're ample and speak for themselves... in a very loud voice.

it's also clear that whatever happened with his last girlfriend did a number on him. it takes a particular kind of heartache to turn a man into a Wookie. he's sort of Spider Jerusalem without the mountain hut (see above picture); that kind of hurt that causes you to retreat into a curtain of hair and abandon almost all grooming techniques. now, he's not nasty or anything...actually, i think he's quite beautiful... but he has created an actual shell around himself-- a furry buffer zone between him and the world. i respect it.

i see it as a physical manifestation of heart wrench.

all of that being said, i can understand why this is slow going and i'm fine with that. i'm certain he's worth it in the end...provided, of course, i get him in the end. which brings me back to my original thought. aside from him being the male version of Andrea, we're destined to be together because the story of us so far is just far too interesting and bizarre to be left to the archives of our separate lives. without even a proper relationship, we've accumulated a staggering and hilarious compilation of grandchildren worthy stories. things just too weird to be an accident. between his inner black man, tripping over boxes, and bacon, how could i want anything other than that? whose story is that compelling? could you put down a book that began with those three things? i couldn't.

i doubt i'll ever meet anyone as wonderfully strange as him who can peak my interest without trying; relaying thoughts in a voice i could listen to forever. he fascinates me in a way that'll take the rest of my natural life to understand and i'm comfortable with that...as long as he's with me.