retraction

so, i said something in a fit of rage that was not only cold, but untrue. in a previous post, i said that loving this person was one of the worst things that's ever happened to me. i reread that later on last night and realized that i can say some cold shit when i'm mad. i'm certain i said it on the phone to him. some things i mean. some things i feel that moment, but time and perspective prove the feeling to be passing. i've said some cold shit in my day. that certainly ranked as one of the meanest things. i'm not a mean person, and as angry as i was with him, there certainly have been worse things that have happened to me...and he's actually one of the best things. things were just taking their emotional toll on me.

so i officially apologize for that statement. it is not true and being with him is something that i'd never regret...of course i have yet to tell him that. i think i'll let him stew a little bit longer. i know that's mean, but what can i say? i'm still mad.