bah!

what a self-indulgent, whining blog. yea, sorry about that. that was wack. i mean, worse things have happened to me...a lot worse. actually, nothing bad has even happened. i guess i'm trying to brace myself for being forgotten. that's my fundamental problem, lack of faith. i'm have so much more reserve and strength than that. this place has got me all turned around and fucked up. i think the self-loathing in the water and the puritanical air is going to my head. so lame. i did my internal inventory a long time ago and i know my worth. i have to get out of here.

my apologies.